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Zanzibar
Age. 39
Gender. Female
Ethnicity. that of my father and his father before him
Location Altadena, CA
School. Other
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The World









The Link To Zanzibar's Past
This is my page in the beloved art community that my sister got me into:

Samarinda

Extra points for people who know what Samarinda is.
The Phases of the Moon Module
CURRENT MOON
Croc Hunter/Combat Wombat
My hero(s)
Only My Favorite Baseball Player EVER


Aw, Larry Walker, how I loved thee.
The Schedule
M: Science and Exploration
T: Cook a nice dinner
W: PARKOUR!
Th: Parties, movies, dinners
F: Picnics, the Louvre
S: Read books, go for walks, PARKOUR
Su: Philosophy, Religion
The Reading List
This list starts Summer 2006
A Crocodile on the Sandbank
Looking Backwards
Wild Swans
Exodus
1984
Tales of the Alhambra (in progress)
Dark Lord of Derkholm
Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?
The Lost Years of Merlin
Harry Potter a l'ecole des sorciers (in progress)
Atlas Shrugged (in progress)
Uglies
Pretties
Specials
A Long Way Gone (story of a boy soldier in Sierra Leone- met the author! w00t!)
The Eye of the World: Book One of the Wheel of Time
From Magma to Tephra (in progress)
Lady Chatterley's Lover
Harry Potter 7
The No. 1 Lady's Detective Agency
Introduction to Planetary Volcanism
A Child Called "It"
Pompeii
Is Multi-Culturalism Bad for Women?
Americans in Southeast Asia: Roots of Commitment (in progress)
What's So Great About Christianity?
Aeolian Geomorphology
Aeolian Dust and Dust Deposits
The City of Ember
The People of Sparks
Cube Route
When I was in Cuba, I was a German Shepard
Bound
The Golden Compass
Clan of the Cave Bear
The 9/11 Commission Report (2nd time through, graphic novel format this time, ip)
The Incredible Shrinking Man
Twilight
Eclipse
New Moon
Breaking Dawn
Armageddon's Children
The Elves of Cintra
The Gypsy Morph
Animorphs #23: The Pretender
Animorphs #25: The Extreme
Animorphs #26: The Attack
Crucial Conversations
A Journey to the Center of the Earth
A Great and Terrible Beauty
The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian
Dandelion Wine
To Sir, With Love
London Calling
Watership Down
The Invisible
Alice in Wonderland
Through the Looking Glass
20,000 Leagues Under the Sea
The Host
The Hunger Games
Catching Fire
Shadows and Strongholds
The Jungle Book
Beatrice and Virgil
Infidel
Neuromancer
The Help
Flip
Zion Andrews
The Unit
Princess
Quantum Brain
The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks
No One Ever Told Us We Were Defeated
Delirium
Memento Nora
Robopocalypse
The Name of the Wind
The Terror
Sister
Tao Te Ching
What Paul Meant
Lao Tzu and Taoism
Libyan Sands
Sand and Sandstones
Lost Christianites: The Battles for Scripture and the Faiths We Never Knew
The Science of God
Calculating God
Great Contemporaries, by Winston Churchill
City of Bones
Around the World in 80 Days, by Jules Verne
Divergent
Stranger in a Strange Land
The Old Man and the Sea
Flowers for Algernon
Au Bonheur des Ogres
The Martian
The Road to Serfdom
De La Terre � la Lune (ip)
In the Light of What We Know
Devil in the White City
2312
The First Fifteen Lives of Harry August
Red Mars
How to Be a Good Wife
A Mote in God's Eye
A Gentleman in Russia
The Fatal Conceit: The Errors of Socialism
Seneca: Letters from a Stoic
The Juanes Module


Juanes just needed his own mod. Who can disagree.
Getting in Trouble
Thursday. 2.26.15 6:57 pm
I've been getting in trouble in almost every aspect of my life this week. I accidentally got in fights with two of my three roommates. I got called on the carpet by both of my head bosses for the two different programs I work for. I teetered on the brink of pissing off two girls that I had really hoped to make my friends. I didn't do any of these things on purpose, but it meant that I spent most of the week writing long explanatory emails, having awkward conversations, and putting out fires left and right. I gave up 9gag for Lent, and I gave up Facebook for the most part, allowing myself about a minute or two on Facebook a day. This week that felt like a mistake, since Facebook always gives me good news and my email and texts were just a continuous source of bad news. The office: bad vibes. My other office: bad vibes. My home: really bad vibes. I just wanted to drive to a random part of town and sit on a corner and try to dredge up some positive energy, but I was too busy running around trying to fix all of the messes I had somehow made. This week was especially bad, but it seems like ever since I started working here I've been in trouble more times than I've been out of trouble, just from sheer inexperience and ignorance about the way things are supposed to be done.

At last, today, I gave a talk about ancient Mars to some engineers.

And it went... well. Really well. I love love love talking about Mars.
And the girls that I wanted as friends got excited about it, too.
And my boss from that part of my life realized that that I wasn't trying to do anything bad and gave me his support.


And I got some advice.

Senior Engineer Guy: Man... tough week.
Me: Yeah. Really tough.
Senior Engineer Guy: What's been tough about your week?
Me: Well, I'm kind of new here, and it seems like I learn about every rule that exists by running afoul of it.
Senior Engineer Guy: Well, if I can offer you one piece of wise advice.... don't stop doing things. Even if everything you do gets you in trouble with the rules. Never stop doing things.


Well, I guess I'm going to go do some more things.

Here's to hoping I don't get in more trouble. :S



5 Comments.


Sorry to hear you've been having a rough week, but I'm glad it was a bit better today.

Your comment about that article was really interesting to me. I do/have had that voice, especially when I'm depressed, telling me I'm bad at everything and people think I'm stupid etc. Unlike that woman, I assumed most people didn't have it, but through reading different things online I started to get the sense that a lot of people actually do. It really is amazing how much easier everything is when that internal voice is silent.
» randomjunk on 2015-02-26 08:58:43

*HUGS* I hope you have a better week this week and that you manage to resolve things with everyone. It sucks to always have to be on guard to avoid accidentally annoying people
» Nuttz on 2015-02-27 11:17:57

It always seems to happen that way; one thing goes wrong and then everything following seems to go wrong along with it. Like the world is sitting there going "hey, watch this ..." and then throws something else at you and just laughs as you struggle though it.
I'm glad that your day seems to have gotten better. Hopefully you're on the uprising trend so that things will even themselves out, and continue as such.
» LostSoul13 on 2015-02-28 08:55:56

I experienced the same shit when I started my new job out here.. I fucked up so much.. and I’m still sort of on eggshells even though it’s been enarly four or five months. I don’t know. My roommate situation is a lot better htan yours though. Maybe because they’re all Italian and Italians are awesome idk.
After our brunch, a lady I knew from school picked me up from the car rental spot and we went to the beach for a few hours, walking and talking and enjoying the company. It went really, really, really well.. outside of the whole ‘wait, you’re .. leaving los angeles? And you wont live here for at least another 2 years if at all?’ conversation at the end.

Never stop doing things. I’m trying to follow that shit. Kid cudi came out with a new song last night. https://soundcloud.com/cudderland/love

“Something I made during the SF sessions. produced by me, keys by Dot. Sample is from one of my favorite Ratatat jams "Sunblocks". And love to Evan and Mike for allowing me to release it.. For you. Hope it brings you some peace if you have a lonely heart out there. byeeeee :)
kid cudicudlife”


It really, really, really helped me.
» undisputed on 2015-03-04 06:00:26

I feel like ease in social situations is a really good one. I always respect that skill because I don't have it. XD
» randomjunk on 2015-03-09 11:04:27

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